From
Publishers Weekly
A story of obsession,
selfishness, lust and despair, Harrison's accomplished first novel
deals with a dysfunctional family and the enduring psychic damage
inflicted on a child. The narrator, Isabel, tells of growing up
in L.A., the product of a brief teenage union between a vain, paranoid,
destructive girl from an eccentric, wealthy, Jewish family, and
a warped, brutal youth with a "heritage of Catholic poverty."
Emotionally abandoned by both parents (she is brought up by grandparents;
her mother lives nearby but withholds intimacy; she doesn't see
her father until her adolescence), Isabel accepts perverse ways
of earning their favor. . . Equating pain with endearment, and sexual
submissiveness and degradation with sanctification, Isabel pleads
for a declaration of love from her mother as the latter dies of
cancer, but is denied even that succor. Harrison relates this story
in hypnotically intense prose.
“Harrowing.
. . it not only succeeds in conveying the horrors that parents may
inflict upon their children, but. . . manages to wring from its
heroine’s story the hope and possibility of transcendence.”
Michiko Kakutani, The New York Times
“Fascinating.
. . Harrison describes twisted family mechanics with a stylish intensity
that gives the grimness meaning.” The Boston Globe
“A brilliant,
overheated first novel simmering with everything one wouldn’t
want to know about a faily: incest, obsession, revenge. . . “
San Francisco Chronicle
“Beautifully
written, unsparingly honest.” The New York Times Book Review
“A boldly
distinctive voice. . . both lyrical and depth-plumbing, a voice
charged with intensity and informed by psychological truths. . .
Remarkable.” Newsday
“Accomplished.
. . a devastatingly understated twiting of taboos.” Entertainment
Weekly
“Harrison
handles difficult scenes with intelligence and startling understatement.
. . a mesmerizing debut.” Express
Books of The Times;
Yearning to Be Normal Beneath a 'Normal' Veneer
By MICHIKO KAKUTANI
"I still
have a file of photographs which I saved from the brief time that
I knew my father," says Isabel, the narrator of Kathryn Harrison's
devastating first novel. "They are pictures that he gave me,
snapshots of his family, ordinary fragments from which it is possible
to reconstruct a life: his children, their mother, the dog, his
car parked in front of their house, birthdays, holidays. Together
they make an unremarkable collection, moments stolen from an average
family."
On the surface,
perhaps, Isabel's childhood and adolescence might also appear unremarkable.
She lives with her grandparents in an oversize Tudor cottage in
Bel Air. As a young girl, she remembers helping her grandmother
paste Blue Chip stamps in redemption books and watching their Persian
cat's kittens grow up. As a teen-ager, she enjoys experimenting
with makeup and clothes, cultivating the perfect tan at the beach
and driving the highways with the car radio blaring loud, silly
songs. Isabel works hard at school, and is accepted by a good college.
There is a dark
undercurrent, however, to this privileged Los Angeles life -- an
undercurrent of abuse, abandonment and incest that will leave Isabel
with a yearning to be normal, a yearning "to be loved like
other people are." It is her story that Ms. Harrison tells
with such candor and compassion in "Thicker Than Water."
Isabel's father,
we learn, grew up poor in a small Arizona town, the middle child
in a large Irish family. His father is an exterminator, driving
a panel truck with sombrero-wearing cockroaches stenciled on its
sides. He sends his favorite son to school in Los Angeles, hoping
he will make something of himself. Eventually, that boy will grow
up to become a small-town politician.
Isabel's mother
is one of those vain, selfish women who radiate a careless, capricious
charm. The daughter of wealthy British expatriates, she has become
accustomed to spending their money on designer shoes and expensive
dresses. She regularly consults with a "white witch" who
tells her that she was a nun in a previous life; she will later
join the Roman Catholic Church.
"My mother
was not yet 18 when she and my father married," Isabel says.
"They were totally unsuited to one another. In one of those
metaphorically apt instances that fate provides, they met at an
amateur production of Oliver Goldsmith's 'She Stoops to Conquer,
or The Mistakes of a Night.' They were teen-agers, each attending
the play with his and her high school English class."
The newlyweds
move in with Isabel's mother's family, but their marriage does not
last. Isabel's father soon disappears, and it's not long before
Isabel's mother also finds an apartment of her own, leaving her
own mother to care for the child she never really wanted. "I
did not know where my mother lived," Isabel says. "I saw
her each day, but she was so protective of her privacy, her fragile
illusory freedom, that not until years later did she reveal her
address, or even her phone number."
As a young
child, Isabel is routinely abused by her mother, but she learns
to worship this elusive, mercurial woman. She wants to please her
mother, to somehow win her love.
It is when Isabel
is 18 years old, and her mother is dying of breast cancer, that
her father resurfaces in her life, pledging to make up for years
of neglect. He takes her to visit his family and that night rapes
her in his mother's basement guest room. He will continue to have
sex with her for two years, until the day of her mother's funeral.
Isabel's acquiescence
in these events, she later suggests, stems from a habit of "sexual
submissiveness and degradation" learned at the hands of her
mother, as well as a need, shared with her father, to settle old
scores with this woman who played such a pivotal role in their lives.
"I allowed myself the consolation," she says, "of
taking from my mother the only thing she said she had ever cared
for: my father's love."
As related
by Isabel, these gothic, Freudian events shock the reader into an
awareness of the destructive consequences of misplaced passions
and warped familial love. It is a story written in hallucinatory,
poetic prose, yet a story that possesses the harrowing immediacy
-- and visceral impact -- of a memoir. Indeed, there is almost no
authorial distance between Isabel and her creator, almost no indication
that this is a novel we're reading.
Acutely conscious
of the ways in which the past shapes the present, Ms. Harrison writes
with skill, passion and a fierce need to make sense of her characters'
lives. What is remarkable about her book is that it not only succeeds
in conveying the horrors that parents may inflict on their children,
but that it also manages to wring from its heroine's story the hope
and possibility of transcendence.
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BOOK
REVIEW;
ABUSE, SELF-HATRED ARE ELEMENTS OF A TRULY HORRIFYING L.A. STORY;
By CAROLYN SEE,
SPECIAL TO THE TIMES
With no disrespect to Steve Martin, "Thicker Than Water"
is a true L.A. story. This is the story that is repeated after school
on clean bed spreads in little girls' rooms between brooding about
lipstick and nail polish, making prank calls and getting dressed
up in outlandish outfits.
This is the
certain kind of story that unfolds in nice houses above Sunset Boulevard
-- this particular time in Stone Canyon, right there in Bel-Air
-- during long afternoons when teen-age girls giggle. But out beyond
the bedroom door, the reality is hideous, too hideous to encompass.
In its horrifying familiarity, it feels just like home.
Isabel (whose
name we don't catch until halfway through this story) lives in Stone
Canyon with her grandparents. Isabel summers in La Jolla, goes with
her girlfriend's parents to the Self Realization Fellowship Temple
down on Sunset Boulevard by the beach.
Isabel stays
home and pastes in Blue Chip Stamps. She watches the Jackie Gleason
Show with her grandfather. She longs to be a June Taylor Dancer.
She goes to a good prep school.
But here's the
other story. Her mother, beautiful, well bred, of European-Jewish
extraction, met a white trash kid when she was 16, got pregnant,
got married and dumped the guy -- who went to live out in the Mojave
Desert in Needles. The mother stays at home until she quarrels with
her own parents and goes to live in a tiny apartment, neglecting
to leave her address or phone number. Isabel is 5.
It's not that
Isabel's mother doesn't come around. She does come around, on weekends,
and gets ready for her elaborate dates. She won't let Isabel sit
on her lap, for fear she'll get varicose veins.
She plays around
with Isabel, but she molests her too, inserting things like tooth
brushes when and where she shouldn't. No one will ever know. Isabel
will never tell. The question never even comes up.
And Isabel grows
up just a little bit on the screwy side, starving herself, bashing
her fingernails with stones, beating herself in secret, and later,
dosing herself with an emetic, so that she will not only throw up
after every meal but feel terrible while she's doing it.
Anything to
feel. Something.
Isabel's grandmother
tells her it's OK to have a kid if she gets pregnant. Her mother
takes her to get a diaphragm when she's 15 and still a virgin. Isabel
goes to the beach, and giggles, and shop lifts, while the single,
serious, terrible, unspeakable fact remains totally intractable
and unexplainable: Her mother can't stand her.
On a "good"
day, her mother never thinks of her at all. (And for those who think:
Oh, just another story about someone whose mother didn't love her,
she had enough to eat, didn't she? She has a swell roof over her
head! She went to a good school! I remind you of the proverb: "Better
a dinner of bitter herbs where love is, than a meal of stalled ox
where there is no love at all.")
The second half
of this novel takes a terrible turn. The young and beautiful mother
is felled by a particularly virulent cancer. Isabel's father, wild-eyed
from the desert and hideously vile, turns up. Isabel enters into
a kind of self-destructive revenge that almost destroys her. Because
anything goes in Los Angeles!
Behind the fragrance
of eucalyptus; behind the neatly stacked expensive underwear; the
forever-strange family photographs; the long, somnolent days at
the beach; the La Brea tar pits; the sobbing kids on school buses,
there remains this vibrating, awful fact: If your own mother detests
you, she licenses you to be an outlaw. Your soul is lost; your life
is damned.
This is the
story of kids I went to high school with. This is the story of a
particular California nightmare: The child who is born, in easy,
even luxurious circumstances, and soon, way too soon, notices that
her fate on Earth is to be discarded and loathed.
There should
be a snappy ending to this review, but you know what? There's no
snappy ending to this kind of story. To tell it at all is the only
(limited) triumph.
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Unattainable Love
By Dan Cryer.
Dan Cryer is Newsday book critic.
ANY NEW WRITER worth watching announces herself with a boldly distinctive
voice. Kathryn Harrison's first novel, "Thicker Than Water,"
does so memorably, in a voice both lyrical and depth-plumbing, a
voice charged with intensity and informed by psychological truths.The
blood ties that are thicker than water, Harrison knows, are sacred
yet scary, the love between parent and offspring sometimes more
painful than comforting.
"Thicker
Than Water" is a daughter's ferociously disturbing first-person
account of her unrequited love for her mother and the wretched entanglement
her father offers in its place. It is, quite literally, a sensational
story, yet one that Harrison tells absolutely without sensationalism,
in the measured, carefully crafted language of the artist.
Isabel, the
narrator, is the product of an early '60s teenage love match between
a working-class Arizona boy sent to a fancy Hollywood prep school
and the old-moneyed Bel Air girl he meets at a school play. The
young woman's pregnancy results in a quick marriage followed shortly
(since the bride's family finds the groom unacceptable) by a divorce.
The infant Isabel is left largely in the care of Mom-mom, her maternal
grandmother.
Since Isabel's mother is only 17, it's little wonder that she -
we never learn her name - is terrified of responsibility. Unfortunately
for her daughter's sake, she never grows in that regard. When the
child is 5, she takes off, living with friends, storing her belongings
in her old Pontiac, visiting now and then for a stiff embrace before
an early departure. Little wonder, too, that Isabel feels permanently
abandoned, deprived of the love that ought to be her birthright.
Isabel's father
eventually begins a new life in Needles in the desert near Arizona,
complete with a family and a career as a small-town politician.
His visits, infrequent during Isabel's childhood, become more regular
when she turns 18 and her mother is dying of breast cancer. What
he brings, however, isn't love but a forced sexual relationship
that the emotionally battered Isabel is powerless to resist.
Harrison's narrative
structure is anything but straightforward. Conventional plot gives
way to an arresting collage of vividly imagined vignettes, memories
and dreams cutting back and forth between past and present.
This technique
is very effective for casting a searchlight on Isabel's pain. We
see the young girl tenderly scraping off her mother's sunburned
back after she's been away for two months in Jamaica; then, when
she's gone again, saving a patch of skin in a dresser drawer. We
see her sneaking into her mother's car to scrutinize the bizarre
newspaper clippings of disaster and loss sent by her father, "love
letters of a sort," she wants to believe.
We see the adolescent
Isabel endure bulimia and kleptomania. We see her shame before the
mysteries of her developing body even as she prostrates herself
before boys.
Of necessity,
given the novel's first-person point of view, the portraits of Isabel's
parents are not as vivid. Always, she gropes to discover who they
are, to make connections, to evoke their unattainable love.
Why her mother
cannot find her way despite early mistakes isn't made clear. What
we do know is that she is unfailingly self-centered and immature
and an erratically desperate spiritual seeker, proceeding from Catholicism
through transcendental meditation to New Age mysticism.
In those few
moments in which we witness her father, he is motivated solely by
a mad vengefulness against his wife's family, manifest in the sexual
abuse of his daughter. In this bleak ritual, he has in Isabel a
kind of collaborator:
"He needed
to hurt my mother, and so did I. I did have remorse but not enough
to withstand the force of his heavy, grinding lust, and my guilt
was ultimately insufficient to combat my own passivity, the paralysis
of despair . . . I allowed myself the consolation of taking from
my mother the only thing she said she had ever cared for: my father's
love."
Still, Isabel
cannot give up the hope of winning her mother's love too. And so
she ministers to the dying woman in the hospital and then at home.
Though these
scenes - the stuff of many novels - lack a certain freshness, Harrison
compensates with triumphantly radiant writing. Here, for instance,
is Isabel's mother undergoing radiation treatment:
"Mother
on her altar cloth, the godlike eye of the machine regarding her
from the ceiling mount. And I watching from a safe distance as the
angelic rays, the cold invisible fire, penetrate to her heart, her
soul. Matter can neither be created nor destroyed, and I am witness
to the transubstantiation of the flesh that bore me."
Harrison isn't
particularly adept at dialogue, it seems, but she skirts the problem
with a meditative narrative that allows her to avoid it whenever
possible. And in the end, when Isabel seems on the road to recovery,
her creator invents a plot twist that is altogether too neat in
its symmetry - making her, when she finally decides to bear a child,
infertile.
These are quibbles,
of course. Kathryn Harrison's debut is remarkable. She makes of
this immersion in pain fiction that gives great pleasure.
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